Sunday, December 14, 2014
Earlier, good friend Jon and I had a random conversation on relationships while waiting in line for Pump class registration.
I told my friend, "Friend, I want to settle down. I feel I'm ready for something more permanent." Jon, on the other hand, replied, "I feel I'm ready to be in a relationship again, friend."
Our next shared sentiment was, "I wonder where we that other person is."
This morning, this feeling common to most OFWs crept in again like a thief in the night. It's a familiar feeling I encounter every now and then. Good thing I have the sense to force myself to snap out of it as quickly as possible.
Thankfully, there is the gym. I can spend an hour or so working out to good music. Afterwards, I feel much better. I'm even more thankful that Jon was free to join me in class today. While I don't mind going for class on my own, it's always fun to have a good friend as a companion.
After Pump, Jon and I headed to the food court at the neighbouring mall for a quick bite. We agreed to meet again two hours later for Mass at the church near his place. Prior to that, he had to head back. Meanwhile, I needed to pass by IMM to pick up some shirts that I sent for dry cleaning.
When I got home, it was almost 3:30. Time went by so fast today. I didn't have a lot of time to do other things as I needed to prep for church.
The Mass was also very good today. Sometimes, my faith is put to a test. And yet, when I go to Mass, the Big Guy up there always has an answer to what I have in my head. Today, His answer came via the Second Reading. After Mass, I stayed behind for a few minutes as I wanted to spend a little more time in prayer while Jon made his way back home.
On the way home, there was more clarity and less worrying. I stumbled upon a nice prayer while randomly going through my Instagram feed. It's a short but very beautiful prayer on faith, trust and hope. Recently, this prayer has been uttered quite a number of times.
I really feel I am ready to settle down. I'm ready for the whole "Honey, I'm home" every night. I'm ready for the "Oh, we love this... and we love that...," which would annoy others. Lol! I'm ready for petty fights over the most nonsensical things. Haha! I'm ready to say "Night, night" to just one person. I'm ready to wake up to the same person over and over again.
Maybe the person meant for me, wherever that person is, is not yet ready. Maybe that person is still being prepared. That's why our paths haven't crossed yet. Maybe.
Somewhere in the world, that person is there... I hope.